@xellarey._luv

i hate the excuses most adults give when people talk about trauma from school and say ‘nobody really likes school’ when the school system was NEVER made for neurodivergent kids, being autistic and in grammar is genuine hell 🙏 I had it so severe to the point I had panic attacks just being on school ground and would go into shock at the smell of chlorine dawg, its past the point of ‘hating school’


not to mention people thought it would help to put me with other autistic kids but because the spectrum is so wide, the combo of me being prone to OVERLOOK or overthink convos and people who are prone to UNDERLOOK convos is not a good choice, cuz I have to mask even harder since my default is behaving neurotypical, so it takes more effort to mirror neurodivergent people on a different scale 🥀🥀 also others saying that I’m not autistic solely because ‘I don’t look it’ or ‘im fine in convos’, I mask so hard and then crashout either internally or when I finally scramble away from conversations to be alone, THATS the autism 💔

ppl are dumb cuz they think people liking me/making me popular for my humour means I’m immediately not neurodivergent when the thing I hold onto DEAR LIFE to bond over is my humour. People like me because I MASK, that’s 97% of what u see in autistic ppl god 🥀🥀🙏

“ur so lucky u get online school!!” like its just lying around at home doing nothing. the isolation part is as bad as the burnout, u just take the ‘I don’t have to leave the house!!’ bit and run with it like it makes up for everything. im worried I’ve thrown my future away for my mental health, I’m so isolated I can’t see my friends in person and the only way to talk with them is through my phone, since their parents also hate me im at risk of being cutoff again bc ‘im the devil’. if I lose them I literally have nothing so I have to cling onto them and this hobby for dear life. isolation is worse than u think it is, I’m not lucky for the reason I was sent OUT of school or how I got here 🙏 I only chose it cuz the burnout would’ve killed me years ago, I was burnt out at 10 and took years to recover. isolation isn’t a stupid cute introvert thing once you go through it 24/7, its not ‘alone time 😊’ its being cut off forever. it’s a bad thing, not to be compared to time by yourself for comfort, it’s nothing comforting

long rant im good, yes I hate the acoustic joke it was never funny period full stop, NOW I’m done

@_ArLott_

The skin is less blue or is just me

@Kiyo22._mii

I despise it when my parents say that :

“oh you think school is stressful? I work everyday. It isn’t even that bad.”

It doesn’t mean i dont have the right to feel stressed

@daguitaaa

i hate that everyone says “i wish i was homeschooled”, im homeschooled because i used to get terrible panic attacks in school and i would never go. and trust me you do not wanna be homeschooled, it sucks sometimes because you have no one to talk to, and youre being isolated. it genuinely doesn’t feel good.

@teagie2002

I like homeschooling because I like being at home, but the thing I hate about it is how easily I get distracted and can't focus, and it sucks cause it makes you feel sh*tty about yourself and especially during tests and stuff (especially when you're REQUIRED to do a second language you don't even use, it feels like you're being set up for failure, don't understand the language? Tough)

@GlitchyFerret

Luckily for me I’m finally leaving to a school that ACTUALLY has professionals that specialize in dealing with kids with autism to actually help out so I hope this school will be better then my old one.

@Nobody_Imp0rtent

this is honestly so real. my parents put me through home schooling because a group of 8th graders (i was a 6th grader at the time, im much older now) literally tried to jump me on our break. and plus the rumors about me made me start losing my mental health slowly. 
but, it wasnt good at home either, my mom let me have no connection with anyone outside our home. no friends, no internet outside youtube. just isolation. now im the freak for being too clingy... overall, life just sucks man. im so burnt-out and im only in my late teens....

@AuaAuaAuaAuaAua

I hate school so flipping much and it genuinely makes me sick, but i rather be there then at home because it isn't any better. Also, school gives me some routine which my autistic ass needs 😰😰

@GayShadowMilkCookieTheGreat

Fr but I chose homeschooling since everyday at my school felt like something wrong was gonna happen and that scared feeling of what if an actual lock down goes down and these kids think it's a joke. I'd rather be isolated then potentially dead

@EmoGreenbean

What's crazy is I ended up going to a mental hospital called "Cedar Springs" because I couldn't handle the amount of stress school was giving me to the point I tried to kms multiple times.

@AWOOOOGAE

as a kid whos being doing online my whole life! They do have events where you meet up with other's from different classes! And most of the otuer kids are nice. Still do what you wanna lol.

@phînxDAdogboy

bro , i have straight up trauma from my PRIMARY 

( bdw my parents thought i was lying until i got to the point of sh and suacidle thoughts : ] )

so im autistic and has a hard time with everything and my primary was verry " supportive of that " .
i use to come back home with a un-godly ommount of bruses and cuts and it was because of the teachers , if i did noy right punished
if i did right punished
if i asked for medical help punished 
if i even breathed PUNISHED
it was hell , teachers did not care obt me and by the time i finished school i was burnt out , done sh and more .
only by the school year was literally ending ( i day from ending ) they looked ofter me but before if i skreamed because it was too loud they would of put me in a dark room with nobody in there .

im in secondary now , but the marks are still there .
i still have suacidal thoughts and i still do sh but its been better 
( bdw it was not only the teachers it was also the kids , and the kids are still a pain in the ass id say its wors with the kids in secondary )

@Ryry.k

THIS IS SO REAL SMH

@CheetingAksil

I’m homeschooled right now and I’m gonna start online school but if I’m being honest it’s just probably gonna be the same thing like you said isolation which fricking sucks. Not to mention I think getting homeschooled and staying at home most of the time fricked up my like knowledge of how to socialize but maybe that’s just me I dunno

@mayah_san01

This is literally wht I'm going through 💔🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀

@mills.lovesu

I wanna do homeschool so bad but sometimes home is the place I don’t wanna b.

@Vaehhadcoffee

Homeschool is nice, But it only worked out for me for a bit
I find it better to be near people and see my friends

@Lotus_Pack

Oh I'm DEFINITELY picking isolation, I'm perfectly fine not going to school and Doing my work at home 🥲

@ifailedmaths

I personally will always choose isolation because it’s a choice and it’s something I’ve chosen rather then forced isolation cause of outsiders

@ALostGlitch.

As a homeschooler, personally I prefer homeschool. Yeah you're "less" socialised, but can actually finish work in your own time. For instance in School(depends on the country I think), if you fail a test you still move on with the rest of the class, and for homeschool you do it again until you pass. That's really good tbh. 

But yeah personally I like homeschooling. I've been homeschooled for about 9 years. Oh yeah and i don't work at home even though im homeschooled